I"m alivveeeeee

kinna sorta.. my life is a complete roller coaster... I'm amazed that I am still around with how spacy i am... I fell down stairs the other day.. it was definitely a life changing experience..
I'd been goin through a kinna rough week... men are weird... that's for sure.. some.. they're complete mental cases.. anyhow that's a completely different topic one that I've stressed and angered and mulled over and still come to the same conclusion.. they're retards.. :D anyhowww... so yes stressing and totally spacing out.. i had just moved to a new apartment... which hasn't been working out to well.. guy issues.. so I was completely in my own world.. so one night i was cryin and wishin I was a kid again.. it was so easy not a care in the world.. yaddi yaddi.. etc etc... morning comes.. I'm standing about to go down the stairs when i realised I forgot my phone started to turn around and slid knees first down the stairs... yeaa.. brilliant.. had a nice carpet burn on my legs... definitely not in the bestest of moods... 2 hrs later... I'm again back to complaining and wishing I was a kid again... i suddenly reaslised... that's what happened all the time as a kid.. I was always clumsy and fallin all the time and scraping and brusing myself.. YAY!!! I'm a kid again.. yes completely retarded but hey it did the trick for me and I'm again a happy bumble bee.. I have weird ways of becoming happy but hey as long as it works.. then there's no harm.. so yess..
Anyhow.. so I'm moving into my own place.. for the first time.. its awsum and sucks.. i like the thot of setting things and havin things the way I want them.. it's exciting.. the thot of having to buy furniture and all that other crud is definitely not that fun and exciting.. ughhh... anyhow.. I'm still lookin on the bright side... next time I move I won't have to totally referbish everything all over again.... and I can keep this stuff for long ass time :D yay.. until my 101 relatives drop by and ruin it all.. hehehehe.. yay.. okay.. joy... happy.. uhhuihhh.. cheers... back to work i go!!

I miss..

cooking for a bunch of people... weird never thot I would.. but I do...
slapping people's hands when they pick on my food...
having bbq's and watching the boys playing soccer or other weird games they had invented
seeing his face when he's happy... totally made my day..
having someone to hang out with in the evenings....
having friends to laugh with and memories to share...
sneaking out of the house and going for long walk
having someone there when your depressed and need cheering up
looking forward to waking up and gettin a hug from someone
cooking and listening to andrea bocelli
having activity nights
movie nights with everyone and just having a good time..
appreciaion time...
coming home from a trip and being greeted by people that are genuinly happy to see you again
having him hug me...
knowing I wasn't alone in the world...
having the best friends in the world care about you
havin that person there to talk to when you are havin a horrible time... and they always go out of their way to help you...
late free nights where they'd come in when u were crying and totally make u forget and have a good time...
sleeping with you so u don't feel alone...
real friends!!!!!!!

I miss you guys!!!!!

Happy Halloweeenyyy!!!

for those who don't have my facebook account.. here's the pics of my halloween costume... first I was a killer/vampire bee... and then a bumble bee.. wasn't in the mood to dress as a good little bee both nights... so yeaa.. here we are...

I did both of our make up..... pretty happy with the way it turned out

my friend asked me to do his make up.. the devil.. with the red face.. pretty happy with how it turned out!! Was the best devil face!!

a few from Cali

sooo this is the outcome... well.. just a couple... of what happens when me and mia hang out.. yep yepp... fun fun!!!!