FUN FUN!!

Here's some pics of our home council... wine, icecream, rootbeer, orange fanta.. yummy mix hehe... a good way to keep everything inspired and fun... add 2 babies.. hipper over talkative pple, story telling and walla... who thinks of fallin asleep now?? HEHE!!!And to excuse the photographer (myself) there wasn't a flash.. and pple were moving.. hence the blurriness of the pics





it's dumb I know.. but at the moment.. nothin else to blog about hehe!!

Facial Expressions..

These were takin during a very heated debate... changing topics oh so much I couldn't keep track of what exactly it was all about.. or how it started or whatever... but yea.. thought I should take some pics.. and here's some great ones..

pics with the bro!

Us 3

My bro, Nate, came for a week visit.. so yeaa.. been makin sure to take tons of pics... here's some.. he made us all get dressed while he paraded around in his new outfit.. he's in the navy.. for those that don't know.. sigh!!



My beautiful sisters Charlie and Kerri... Charity is the look alike of me... when we're not sittin next to each other.. yea I agree..
Charity and Nate

The guys

And more coming your way soon!

New avitar

I get bored very often of the same pic.. so it might change quite often... yay!!

My new Fuji

I wuv it.. it's such a cubber little thingy... adorablee!!! What can I say.. I like it.. k I'll be silent.. and shelly.. shhh!! So I sleep with it close at hand when I go to bed.. not my fault I now have to sleep alone.. and I hate having to... tehehe! I WUV U!!! sigh... k.. I shall add some pics that I had taken with it... enjoys pple!! And hopefully more shall come along.. soon as well!!
First pic taken.....our... backyard... buyou thingy...my happy, smiling potatoLost in baby video (most boring video in the world)The little ruffians I think this pic is kewl..... and last one
Yippie joy joy!! Sigh...

Dedicated to Aaron

For the times we spent together, for the times you were there for me, for the love you had shown me, for the hugs and kisses you gave me.
I really do love you, there were times when I might not have shown it.... and a lot of reasons... but I do thank you for the great times we had spent together.. and I am sad they can't continue on. But you have ur reasons.. So I'll respect them and you.
Remember the good times only... remember when it rained... remember me always!

The Queen of Clubs

Bodyart

I think this stuff is like the awsumest in the whole widest world.. I so wanna have something like that painted all over my body.. perhaps one day!!

This one. very well done!


.... laughing... it's great.. halarious... HAHA!


What can I say.. I like it hehe


Absolutely love this one.. the whole texture is soo realisitc, with the cracks and everything.. breaking out of the mold of things... become real.. free.. I love it...

I liked this one.. cause... it's cute... like a real, big, strawberry :D

This one.. IT'S almost freaky.. how real it is.. like.. golly.. she looks like the painting on the wall.. great great stuff.. Hats off to this painter

Now I really do like these they're great.. sure they took a lot of time to paint and all.. but I am sorely dissapointed in the taurus one.. I don't like it.. looks a little... ugly.. and not soo... bullish to me.. I do very much like aquarius.. my favorite..

friends, new pregnancies, and another freeday!

Somethings wrong.. I never seem to be able to get a full decent nights sleep... Something or someone is always bothering it... woke up at 8 this morning.. gasp... of course.. that happened another 4-5 times before I finally dragged myself out of bed....
Oh right.. I did forget to mention a hearty congratulations to my bestest awsumest couple on their engagement and her pregnancy.. WISHIN YOU THE BEST Luca and Cla.. a pic of the awsum couple..





So anyhow.. today is freeday.. reason I got into that was cause they're awsum and I spent most of my morning chatting away with them.. then went to the galleria/bookstore. I love just cozying up in a nice big comfy couch with a good book in my hands... to spend 3 hrs just reading whistlfully away.. ahh! Almost a disapointment to have to put the book down.

I MISS MY FRIENDS!!! here all alone.. well none of my best friends are around... so I have no one to hang out with.. sobbers!! sigh... I miss u potatoes... be sure to stay in touch.. hardly hear from them anymore... grrr!!! Sigh.. and that's an end to this wonderful day... now back to more work days!! Can't get enough of them!

a little gurl all alone in a big world

Yep.. they did it to me.. Left me all alone.. besides yea.. mom and a couple older pple.. sigh.. NOW WHAT??? I'm left with nothing... ARGG!! I can't believe u guys did this to me... was out all day... at the galleria... ballooning... I was exhausted.. my poor toesies were about to fall off.... and yeaa... fell asleep on the couch there... wake up to one of the guys calling me to tell me I left my stuff there.. sigh... and yea.. now back home.. and what do I get.. an empty house.. wouldn't mind.. if I HAD SOMETHING TO DO!!!! Yea.. k.. I'll just.. go .... find something... to... possibly find to do... if I can.. sniffers...

pics of some bday pple

my awsum bro in law... david Beautiful Ryan
Then you've all seend my bro, chia... and anyone else that I can remember.. so cheer to u two.. and the rest... don't kill me :D

to all my friendly birthday naked peaches!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Sorry I have so many birthday friends that it would take up my whole blog to write about all of you... for starters my awsum brother in law.. luv ya!! Ur awsum ur a great dad... funny over the internet.. hopefully I'll be able to meet ya one day... Rosie.. luv ya gurl.. u make a great mommy.. my bro.. ur awsum luv ya overly muchos... Chia.. again.. I luv u babe.. ur the greatest friend one could have.. miss u like a potato misses it's "clothes". Feel naked without you.. snicker.. and of course Ryan.. luv ya too.. though I hardly know you.. ur awsum love your kid.. and when you meet the right man... be sure to have many more sexy children hehe... (being foolish) but I love you all.. everyone of u all.. MUAA!!! livi

Electronics... electronics... more electronics...

As much I really dislike electronics... weird gagets... things that tend to break down in my hands.. I seem to be getting quite a huge amount of them... PDA, computer, nice brand new camera, and now planning on gettin a MP3.. sigh what next? I think I shall stop at that.. and pray... that I don't think of buying anything else.. anymore than that is... wasteful!! I'm weird...
I think I'll give up using any mechanical gagget for... hmm.. a week.. let's see how long that lastes... tehe!

Another day off...

And this one.. is great... and annoying... depressing.. saddening...
Had gone with Aaron, his bro gf, my bro.. and 2 chicks to watch Pirates of the Carribean... and though it was a good funny movie.. I HATE THAT KIND OF ENDING!!! errrg... I was annoyed... really angry...
oh well so we go off and eat at our favorite arabic restaurant.. which costs 11 bucks and usualy I don't eat enough to make it worth the 11 bucks.. which is quite annoying... then went to hang out.. and read at barns and noble.. which was fun... but right after we left I realised that I didn't have my camera on me... and yeaa.. no one else saw or had it... I called the theater about 5 times trying to find out if they found it yet... and then after 15 hrs they said they didn't.. now I don't know where to look... or if I'll ever see it.. SOB!! I miss my camera!!

Garfield....

I love this guy.. he reminds me of me.. quite a lot...

This yea.. definately me.. though I'm sure a lot more pple would agree that they can be the same way... or.. not!

HAHA!! Definately me

Know what he feels

and these... they're just halarious.. I love his dry witty humor and sweet self.. so positive, cheerful, and sweet tehe

YAY FOR ITALY!!

Sorry those rooting for France... but I am so joyously happy that Italy won. It's so kewl.. last time I was actually watching soccer... was when I was in Italy and they won... so it's kewl... anyhow.. YAY FOR ITALY!! snicker...
And so my rambling continues now.... I know there's stuff to talk about.. but every time I sit on the computer.. I can't think about things I had meant to say... oh well...
I hate those times when I feel like I have a thousand things to say... well a thousand ways I feel... emotions, joy, sadness, but I can never explain it the way I feel it... happens with everything for me... I'm dimwitted.. snicker...
OH well.. I shall be quiet now.. for a spell... tehhee... CHEERS ITALY!!...

Friday events...

My i key is stuck... oh well... no that's not what I was gonna write.. just noticed that...
Was at the galleria.. another eventful ballooning day... Gettin boring.. no new fun things have happened recently that is worth blogging about.
But after coming home.. I was starving.. which isn't anything new.. been that way for quite a few days... which is nasty.. as I'm becoming quite a octopus.. but PTL! So me and aaron went to walk to Taqueria Arandas... Very enjoyable.. the weather... we commented... felt like a stinky underarm... yea.. barfable I must say... oh well... so ate some cold chips and extra spicy salsa... which hey would have been great I'm sure.. other than the face that I can't eat to spicy food.. so yeaa.. was nice.. then for a wonderful cold california burrito.. which tasted as if yeaa... was cooked an hr earlier.. just my wonderful luck... couldn't even eat the whole thing... let along half... just say I won't be doin that for a while yet...

Busy, Busy, Busy!!

Yep pretty much have have been going nonstop. That's why I've only been able to post a couple things... hardly have had time to even eat.. it's insane!
Doin extra ballooning over the week... and yeaa.. that's pretty much it.. oh yea.. besides trying to sleep.. so tired these days.. it's crazzyy!! Yawn.. still tired... Okay gonna go be lazy.. Cheers pple.. and get ur sleep

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHIA!!

I luv u Chiemi... you're a great friend... funny, sexy, caring, and soo sweet. We have the best of friendship resulting in just a 3 day camp... and I only pretty much spent the last day hanging out with you. You were super cute, and I still feel horrible about that bruise you got on ur leg when u jumped off the cliff into the water...

I did something once that almost made us loose our friendship, and I was so scared that I had lost it... I'm so happy you forgave me. I love you so much. You're such an inspiration to me, to keep positive and praiseful no matter what. You're such a doll... and I love you like crazy. Can't wait to see you and hopefully one day we'll be able to live together. You mean the world to me.. MUAA

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!!

Here's to Nate... a very awsum loving bro... One of a kind. Proud boastful and lifted up.. sigh.. unfortunately he himself admits to this... and ohhh so much more.. but in all.. he's a great guy... who loves his Family and is awsumly kewl!!
You're great bro and I love you tons... Can't wait to see you, hang out and PARTYYY with you... There are so many more ways to describe just how kewl you are.. so live with this... and yeaa.. know I love you.. mucho muches! luv yaa!!

For the Best Person I ever Knew!!

In Memory:
~~Mathew Hayes~~
Jan 15, 82 - July 2, 02

Matt,
You were more than just a very awsum brother to me... you were one of my best friends. No, you were, during my younger years, my only friend. The only one I knew would always be there for me. The only one that would try and include me in everything you did. The one that would always talk to me, and acted like I was older than I really was. That was the best thing anyone has ever done. You were the best. You were my brother, and no matter what, there's no one that can take the place you had in my heart. It's still there... I know you know that... but so many times I'm tempted to not believe that you are here... that you care. I miss you so much. I miss your love, I miss your talks, I miss you like crazy.
Wish I could go back. Wish I could take it all away. I wish I had been a better sister for you, helped you more, when you were going through things. Who knows that it would have changed. You were the best.
Thanks for all the good times. Thanks for everything. Thanks for making me part of who I am today. The part that knows she can't give up. I know you always cared... Sorry I wasn't a bigger help to you. When the day comes when I see you..... I can't wait..... I love you...



Hot tears burning down my cheeks.
One after another to form a pool below.

All for you Matt,
Only you.

The light of a thousand shimmering candles.
The smoke of a thousand haunting memories.
A wisp so faintly billowing,
Yet smell the scent of so many fears.

The cry of my heart Matt,
Always for you.

No words to discribe just how I feel.
A life time yet without your presence.
How much more time, Matt?
I'll wait.... I miss you


To My Bro Matt
I'm not that good at rhyming, but this is just to let you know, that I really do love you, Matt, thought I never really let it show.
I often wonder what it's like up there, what it is you're doing, and if you miss those whom you left in your leaving.
You seem so far from me, though I know it's not true, for you promised you'd never leave me, though at times that's not the way it seems.
I don't really know what to say, for I'm not to good at words, but right now I feel like crying. Will I ever see your face again?
Can you see me Matt or is it just part of the wish I made the day we parted ways?
I doubt this wish of mine will ever come true so I'll just let you in on it since it's always about you. If I could have one wish it would be for you to be here so I can see and feel you, just to know you are real. To never again let you out of my sight, and always stick up for you even though I know it's not right.
But I wouldn't care about right or wrong or anything else for that matter because I'd have you. But would I want you back here with me? I remember so much pain. Would you still be the same? Would I still see your look of sadness? Dismay?
Maybe if I just not think about that it'll all go away, But I wouldn't want you back if it'll be that all again, for I couldn't bear all the times I saw you look that way.
I guess since this will never happen it'll continue to be a dream. But can't you at least plead with God to let you come down here with me?
To me you were the best person on earth, sure you made mistakes, but I loved you more than my life itself.
It hurt me Matt, when I found about it all. You had always been there for me, helped me and told me what to do, but me.. I wasn't even there for you.
You were always strong and when you told me your problems it made me look up to you even if you thought I was dumb.
I'm sorry for not being there when you needed someone the most. I'm sorry I didn't call you that night like I knew I should. Would it have made a difference? Would it have changed your mind?
Somehow I doubt it would.... what were u thinking? Was it me? I'm sorry bro, I never knew things would turn out this way, and if what happened was my fault in any way.. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I wasn't the best sister you had, but I'm glad I was your sis. I don't know what God was thinking by making me but I'm glad He made you my bro.
I guess you already know that you mean the world to me.... I can't think about any of this without sobbing.... but I love you... Always... Happy 4th Anniversary bro!




I'm Sorry....

I'm sorry for all the times I left you,
I'm sorry for all the times I hurt you,
I'm sorry for all the times I made fun of you,
I'm sorry for all the times I lied.

I'm sorry for all the times I didn't care about you,
I'm sorry for all the times I wasn't there for you,
I'm sofrry for all the times I disappointed you,
I'm sorry for all the times I made you cry.

I'm sorry for all the times I spoke bad about you,
I'm sorry for all the times I was mean,
I'm sorry for all the times I was cruel to you,
I'm sorry for all the times I bitched at you.

I'm sorry for all the times I got mad at you,
I'm sorry for all the times I forgot about you,
I'm sorry for all the times I ignored you,
I'm sorry for all the times I didn't try.

I'm sorry for all the times I didn't call you,
I'm sorry for all the times I didn't hug you,
I'm sorry for all the times I didn't say "I'm sorry",
But most of all I'm sorry for all the times I failed to say "I really love you."



Ps.. this isn't supposed to be poetic words as I'm in no way poetic... just words to my brother of how much I love him.

It's only a dream!!

It's only a dreamm... and suddenly reality... it's not a dream... what happened is real, and nothing can make it go back so you can change it... last night went through a really tough time.. where all I wanted to do was wake up from my "life". I still do.... found out it's more pain than not. Just want to wake up.