things....

I should be fine.. I'm not. I should be happy... I'm not. I should be having fun... I'm not. I should be enjoying life... I'm not.
The weirdest things make me look at my life and realize what is missing... and I have.... I always then wish I could go back and do what I messed up again... when I should have been smiling and laughing but wasn't all over again.. I'm pretty stupid.....