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I have come to not looking forward to cooking and eating.. why... because it's gonna be the same.. either some damn chicken or freakin tuna... I really really dispise those two.. and for those of u that know me.. I can't freakin eat the same thing over and over and over in a row... it drives me mad.. and now i hate those two things.. the taste makes me sick.. blahhh!!! I'm so craving some good mediterranean food... ughh anything but this.... blahnesss!!! so I just thot I should say that.. cause I felt like it....
And cause the sloshy wants me to write something.. I have pics.. well some.. that I haven't yet posted... but oosh I am lazy... and the amount of time that is consumed by tryin to upload them bothers me... urgg!!! but yess.. I shall find time tonight to post...
There's nothin I dislike more... than having to work with stupid people... no no.. seriously these people are damnnn stupid.. they don't know how to read instructions to figure out how to take paper that got jammed out of the scanner... nothin more annoying... its priceless
anyhoww... so on to some other news... hmm... been doin modeling work... nothin to overly grand tho I have a friend at the galleria that's wanting me and maybe kerri to model for his clothing line.. it's pretty good and I went last week to check it out and see how it is.. and I think I'll do it.. looked like a lot of fun!!!
urgg people are now throwing fits.. I must run... cheers pple.. will try tonight to post pics..

I won't party like it is....

Ever since I was young I hated people singing me Happy Birthday to me. I hated how utterly embarressing it is to be standing on a chair while the household of 30 odd people sang where they're all singing in that off pitched way.....GADDSS!!!! I always used to burst out crying. Theeeee absooluteeee worst thing you could do to an overly shy kid.... and well it seems that I'm still the same. I hate being the focus of attention from people. Previously I had been able to grab a random baby from their parents while I was sung to... made it seem like it's not all on me... but unfortunately.. no random babies this year I can grab...
Hopefully people will just not sing for me.. Goshhh!! The horror... ughh~~~
Anyhow.... ughhh I'm OLD!!! Damn I dislike this.. ONly a retard now looks forward to their bday's... Or a child... Well everything is better as a child.... esp birthdays... so anyways.. yepp bdays were quite the nightmare.. NAd yep they still are.. Blahhh! I think I'll just skip my bday this eyar.... Remain 22... let my younger baby siblings catch up and pass me on by... Damn wish that would freakin work! I Shall find a way to beat gettin older! So all that to say... It's that Blasted day!! YAY!!!
At least most everyone I know and work with have horribly memories... and have pretty much forgotten it's today....

On a later side note... my work didn't forget... they all slowly started wishing me a happy birthday and telling me that they're gonna all gather up by my desk and sing happy bday... oh Lorddd!!! The horror!!!!

A crazy rant!!!

I was watching a documentary last night about what attracts people to each other... boy it's a freakin load of shit that makes two pple match up.... Looks, personality, smell, sound of their voice, walk, something havin to do with ur spine..etc etc... it was goin into some weird ass stuff.... but anyhow.. it was interesting.. and i realised.. oh boy!! I'm weird... not like I didn't know buttt... for me.. my main thing is personaility and the eyes... eyes are such a big thing for me... and then personality.. sure looks, features etc have a part to do with it... buttt I'm more lenient to that then to personality and eyes... like kerri... her's is more looks... I swear we are so freakin different me and kerri.. she likes baby looks.. I like chisled manlier... kinna thing thing.. yeaa.. I have been known to date baby faced guys... whatever... like I said... I am more lenient with that... tho one guy has a horribly mean... personality.. well.. some times... anyhowwwww...
I've come to realise that gettin with someone is more complicated that I had origionally thot it would be... and relationships I've realised as well.. ARE FREAKIN TOUGH!!!! I definitely will say that... NO.. actually they can be pretty damn easy.. IF SOME PEOPLE WOULD STOP BEING ASSHOLEESS!!!! Yep my small anger and frustration bursts... being let out...
Of course I have the best... and greatest times for tryin to vent... like.. yep.. work.. where I'm clacking maddly at the stupid keyboard... while people are staring at me like I'm a crazy sycho person... Well yes I have many frustrations and right now I probably am a little crazy... NO.. I'm freakin frustrated.... mainly at a specific male... well no.. at guys in general.. most of them... some of them.. the annoying ones.. but THIS GUY IN PARTICULAR!!!! who freakin confuses the crapp out of me!!! Yep basically it's the same as always... and basically as annoying as ever.... I just don't think I was cut out for the whole relationship/retarded... emotional shitttt.. involved in it.. especially with this special turd nugget!!! Maybe it's me.. maybe just the people I'm attracted to.. yeepp.. that's the case with this one... IT BLOWWSS!!!!
... Anyhoww... This documentary was very interesting... but it made me wonder about this relationship with this guy I have. so yepp... I'm a thoroughly confused individual... I love him.. he loves me.. he makes me so angry.. i make him freakin angry.. we fight we argue.. we make up.. we ooshh.. it's yeaa.. it's just the biggest freakin roller coster.. and now I'm wonderin.. WTF!!!! what's making us act that way.. So yes.. I am annoyed and frustrated of not being able to understand.. I want to go to the gym.. and work all this annoyance off... and people wonder why I'm at the gym roughly 4 hrs a day!!! OSHHH!!! There's no better more productive way to get the frustrations out.. while getting into shape....
And these people here at work are driving me insane... they're acting like IDIOTS!!!! lordy... Okay gonna go find someone to growl at... I shall marry that annoyingly frustrating individual... Bwahhahaa! Poor bugger.. won't know what hit him!!! Revenge is sweettt! Oh.. that documentary was freaking interesting... and kewl... Ya.. and I am weird!

annnddd....... just one

of each of us... enjoy world!! bwahahha!! this was the shoot me and chia did....

Livi is sooo Happyyy!!

I got to see my Chiemi girl again.. it's been so long and I've missed her like crazyyy. I flew down to Tenn.. yep red neck town... for the weekend.. it was great fun. We had a photo shoot together with a photographer who was sooo freakin happy to work with us... We got some great hot shots of the both of us. We had diet mountain dew.. which made me happy... we sang we danced we jumped on beds... chia dropped my phone into the water and now it's not working.. the only reason.. I'm not to happy.. oh and the fact that I got in NOOO freakin exercise this week... another thing I'm quite mad about.. but other then that I had such fun! I miss my luv.. anyhow.. I don't have all the pics yet!!!! so I'll wait till I do.. i'm just happy.. oh sooo happy!!!


ooshhh I am mad about my phone.. nothin so annoying and frustrating esp when trying to reach pple so I can get picked up from the airport... gosh darn water!

fun timeess!!

we had a surprise party for kerri... at one of our friends house.. awsum enough.. she didn't know.. and it wasn't given away so she was really surprised... and it was kewl and fun.. made a bunch of snacks and chilled and drank.. then went to bar rio for Van Buuren's concert.. which absolutely rocked.. these are the pics of at the concert.. great times.. great fun!!!

funn funn!!

sooo me and shelly finally got to hang out.. after like a year... and here's the outcome.. these are just a couple.. as soon as I get the rest fixed I'll post them up as well.. enjoys!!!